It’s the end of another school year already. I’m a senior now. Wow.
I regret not taking the time to reflect on each year as it went by, but I’m going to start today. This was probably the most eventful year I’ve had-also the year I’ve grown the most as a person.
During this year:
1. I declared the ISF major. I said my interests was global communications, meaning I wanted to examine how technology affects communication in different parts of the world. I’ll be honest–that was a bunch of BS I threw together after Haas rejected me. But on the bright side, it’s no longer BS because I…
2. Realized what I want to do with my life. Not the entire picture in high resolution, more like a fuzzy Polaroid that’s still being developed. But it’ll be something at the crossroads of business, technology, and communications. Business because it’s interesting and I like to think I’m good at it. Technology’s just in my blood (and it’s cool!). Communication is more or less one of my core values. On that note, I…
3. Realized that the Haas rejection was one of the best things to happen to me at Berkeley. Because I’m not interested in most of the core aspects of business, not the stuff emphasized here. Everyone seems to want to go into banking, finance, accounting, consulting. That’s not what I want. I’d shoot myself if I had to take another accounting class. I’m into the more creative processes, developing relationships. Speaking of which, I…
4. Bungled two potential relationships. I’m the kind of guy that wants to be friends first to kind of see if we’re compatible. Unfortunately, that mindset doesn’t work well with women because as soon as you’re in the friendzone, you might as well try to dig yourself out of a black hole. Or so I’ve learned. Last semester was pure infatuation–for us to work, I wanted to change a part of her, and you can’t do that with people. Change has to be something that comes from within, of a person’s own volition. This semester.. well, she had me with her smile from the first day of class. But after a disastrous first “date”, I think I’d have better odds playing the lottery. Still, she’s an amazing person, and I know she’ll have a beautiful life. And be a sun in somebody else’s sky. I Just wish it’d be mine (LOL props if you can figure out which cheesy song that’s adapted from). But seriously, I don’t think I deserve her right now anyway, which leads me to…
5. Self improvement. I’ve come a long way from the quiet introvert that used to play Gunbound in class freshmen year. I’ve become a lot more outgoing, but I’m still not where I’d like to be. Especially when I’m stressed out–then I revert back completely. I took a PE class and I’m more or less happy with the way I am, physically. It’s given me more confidence. But I need to stop caring so much about what people think of me, to just be able to relax in social situations and not worry about saying the “right” thing, or giving the “best” response. Just gotta roll with the punches, always look out for that
Sweet Silver Lining. It’s always there. There’s always something good that comes out of everything.
It’s the end of another school year already. I’m a senior now. Wow.
I regret not taking the time to reflect on each year as it went by, but I’m going to start today. This was probably the most eventful year I’ve had-also the year I’ve grown the most as a person.
During this year:
1. I declared the ISF major. I said my interests was global communications, meaning I wanted to examine how technology affects communication in different parts of the world. I’ll be honest–that was a bunch of BS I threw together after Haas rejected me. But on the bright side, it’s no longer BS because I…
2. Realized what I want to do with my life. Not the entire picture in high resolution, more like a fuzzy Polaroid that’s still being developed. But it’ll be something at the crossroads of business, technology, and communications. Business because it’s interesting and I like to think I’m good at it. Technology’s just in my blood (and it’s cool!). Communication is more or less one of my core values. On that note, I…
3. Realized that the Haas rejection was one of the best things to happen to me at Berkeley. Because I’m not interested in most of the core aspects of business, not the stuff emphasized here. Everyone seems to want to go into banking, finance, accounting, consulting. That’s not what I want. I’d shoot myself if I had to take another accounting class. I’m into the more creative processes, developing relationships. Speaking of which, I…
4. Bungled two potential relationships. I’m the kind of guy that wants to be friends first to kind of see if we’re compatible. Unfortunately, that mindset doesn’t work well with women because as soon as you’re in the friendzone, you might as well try to dig yourself out of a black hole. Or so I’ve learned. Last semester was pure infatuation–for us to work, I wanted to change a part of her, and you can’t do that with people. Change has to be something that comes from within, of a person’s own volition. This semester.. well, she had me with her smile from the first day of class. But after a disastrous first “date”, I think I’d have better odds playing the lottery. Still, she’s an amazing person, and I know she’ll have a beautiful life. And be a sun in somebody else’s sky. I Just wish it’d be mine (LOL props if you can figure out which cheesy song that’s adapted from). But seriously, I don’t think I deserve her right now anyway, which leads me to…
5. Self improvement. I’ve come a long way from the quiet introvert that used to play Gunbound in class freshmen year. I’ve become a lot more outgoing, but I’m still not where I’d like to be. Especially when I’m stressed out–then I revert back completely. I took a PE class and I’m more or less happy with the way I am, physically. It’s given me more confidence. But I need to stop caring so much about what people think of me, to just be able to relax in social situations and not worry about saying the “right” thing, or giving the “best” response. Just gotta roll with the punches, always look out for that
Sweet Silver Lining. It’s always there. There’s always something good that comes out of everything. If I hadn’t been rejected from my top choice colleges, I wouldn’t have gone to Berkeley and met all you awesome people. If I hadn’t been rejected from certain clubs my freshmen year, I wouldn’t have stopped by the IABC conference and met Paul, who has done more for my professional development than anyone else, and I wouldn’t have joined PBL, which well.. speaks for itself. Definitely one of the highlights of my college career. Without PBL, I wouldn’t have got in touch with Jerry, who set me on the path to the ISF major. Point is…
There’s all these little serendipitous events that shape our lives. There’s no point in dwelling on a particular event. Tomorrow’s a new day. Exciting things will happen. Is it fate? Are all these little events planned and designed to shape our lives a certain way? Or is it just sheer luck? Some of us win big at Vegas. Some of just go home. You know what I think? I don’t think it matters. Que sera sera. What happpens, happens. Maybe sometimes you can control it. Maybe sometimes you can’t. You know what you can control? Your attitude. And you know what? I’m just going to enjoy the ride. Will update in a few days with a more concrete post about summer plans.
Bonus point: identify this quote.
‘Half of everything is luck.’
‘And the other half?’
‘Fate.’
